A Farewell to Fear

Laugh it up,
But move in closer.
And I'll breathe,
If just for now.
Or for eternity.

Damn you.
And all of your
Perfection.
It can die alone,
With the light
Across the water.

This ship
has sailed.
Stop your waves,
Tossing me up
To drag me down
And fill my lungs.

I'm not gone,
But keep moving.
I won't drown,
You won't sink.
We will sail
Until we can't.

I'll be here.
When it storms,
When you're lost,
When you ache.
But most of all
When there's nothing.

Goodbye.
To my trials,
To your frustrations,
And your fears.
And hello again
To you and me.

Perpetual Battle

I've got so much to say
But the words fall apart
As they're pushed through my mind
Like my blood through my heart
And the thoughts crash together
With a screech of their tires
'Cause the kids that are smiling
Are all little liars

'Cause some kids are talking
With a swing of their fist
Then with a turn of their heel
Screaming out "Coexist!"
Because who gives a fuck
What's wrong or what's right
When they all have a pillow
To cry on at night

With the blink of an eye
And a slip of the tongue
A life is expelled
With the air from my lung
So they slip away slowly
Through time and through space
Leaving no sign of being
But a scar on my face

The world keeps on moving
Full of filth and of hate
As we crawl across land
With our spite as our weight
To drag as all down
Through earth's living hell
Till we reach the new ocean
And are plunged in its swell

Of Course.

We watch you,
As you take that cigarette
Into your shaking hands
We watch you.
As you suck in that ragged breath
With smoke rolling over your teeth
Waiting for the world to stop,
Because of course you'll die.
Of course we're bad.
Of course we hate you.
Of course the world hates you.

We watch you,
As your throat and your eyes burn
In the pessimistic fog
We watch you.
As your voice quivers through your lips
Saying the world is only torture
While the poisonous vapor slips out,
Because of course it hurts.
Of course it stings you.
Of course it's their fault.
Of course it's all our fault.

We watch you,
As you point your disapproving finger
Through the choking cloud
We watch you.
As you shake your head with disgust
Looking through that foggy mass
At all the mistakes of the world,
Because of course it's wrong.
Of course it's disgusting.
Of course it wasn't you.
Of course it was everyone else.

We watch you,
As you cough out your testimony
Of all the wrongdoers
We watch you.
As your whispers of stinging judgement
Form a noxious haze over you
With every struggled breath,
Because of course you're right.
Of course their time is coming.
Of course you will prevail.
Of course they deserve to die.

We watch you,
As that poisonous murk surrounds you
Blocking out the world
We watch you.
As your shivering limbs reach out
Through the all-consuming cloudy death
For the switch to turn it all away,
Because of course it's there.
Of course you will reach it.
Of course it will save you.
Of course we won't.

We watch you,
As your arms flail wildly
Through that toxic wall of hate
We watch you.
As your decrepit body is corroded
By the stifling cloud of judgment
That flowed from your dying lungs,
Because of course the world is all wrong.
Of course it's full of filth.
Of course you're pure.
Of course you'll survive.

Of course not.